Thursday, June 14, 2007

bad day

we all have days where we feel lousy abt ourselves
like tonight....
i feel like shit honestly....
just when i thought the world tumbled down on me
wondering how much shit can one take in a day
inferiority complex hitting rock bottom
askin myself if i m strong enough
whining to GOD
even questioning him....

and GOD let me read this.....

Today, upon a bus,
I saw a girl with golden hair.
and wished I was as fair.
When suddenly she rose to leave,
I saw her hobble down the aisle.
She had one leg and wore a crutch.
But as she passed, she passed a smile.

Oh, God, forgive me when I whine.
I have 2 legs, the world is mine.

I stopped to buy some candy.
The lad who sold it had such charm.
I talked with him, he seemed so glad.
If I were late, it'd do no harm.
And as I left, he said to me,
"I thank you, you've been so kind.
It's nice to talk with folks like you.
You see," he said, "I'm blind."

Oh, God, forgive me when I whine.
I have 2 eyes, the world is mine.

Later while walking down the street,
I saw a child with eyes of blue.
He stood and watched the others play.
He did not know what to do.
I stopped a moment and then I said,
" Why don't you join the others, dear?"
He looked ahead without a word.
And then I knew, he couldn't hear.

Oh, God, forgive me when I whine.
I have 2 ears, the world is mine.

With feet to take me where I'd go.
With eyes to see the sunset's glow.
With ears to hear what I'd know.
Oh, God, forgive me when I whine.
I've been blessed indeed, the world is mine

how true.aint we blessed?why am i feelin so not contented then?

afterall....God didn't promise days without pain, laughter without sorrow, sun without rain, but he did promise strength for the day, comfort for the tears, and light for the way.

Disappointments are like road bumps, they slow us down a bit but we will enjoy the smooth road afterwards. jus dont stay on the bump to long. Move on!

When you feel down like me, because you didn't get what you want, just sit tight and be happy, because God is thinking of something better to give us.

and ben is waiting patiently for that to happened:)

Heavenly Daddy,thanks for makin me feel better,despite the fact that i questioned u felt horrible b4 that.



duncan said...

hmm .. life is .. sometimes so unfair .. when we lack of something we hope to have it , when we have it , we hope to have it more , it's never ending ... and look .. like what u had mention , they r more pathetic ppl out there , we r consider fortunate mayb we r often asking too much ( perfectionist ? mayb ) thats y we feel so inferior .. anyway cheer up k dx miu ! we r all here =)

Mooks said...


easier said that done . but lets try !

brandon said...

i know how you feel

sometimes the disappointment that that something did not hapen kills. but cheer up. it always happens for a reason : )

+*+Serena+*+ said...

Hmmm... People do have ups and downs sometimes... Even me do... Such as we don't get contented for what we have now... But I think sometimes this kind of situation will help us to learn and grow... So... Just don't get too upset... Cos... TOMORROW WILL BE A NEW AND BETTER DAY!!! CHEER UP OK?! Will be there for you when you need me! =)

distantpromise said...

if u need someone to talk,i willl always be there for u ok!

duncan said...

yup cheer up ben , u r so fortunate and lucky than anyone of us here already! believe god will plan the path for u to continue n believe me , it will be a good one =)

ethel said...

HEyss. cheer up. =D. life's full of ups and downs.


russ said...

thanx for all e encouragement guys..i seriously feel much better.especially seeing all e sweet comments by u peeps.

jo@nse@h said...

ya ben you see u have so much frds behind u. u are not alone!

Anonymous said...

yes,trust god that he will be there for u.

LPPL said...

Sometimes we just need to feel satisfied which is not easy considering the fact that it is a materialistic and sinful world. There bound to be unrejectable temptation and it's always more and more, larger and larger, superior and superior. Anyway, like what everyone says, you have so many supporters and friends behind ya and that is what counts most. So, just relax, be happy and appreciate what you already have. Everyone is learning towards that path. Take Care!!

russ said...

thanx joan,anon and ippl.yeah,i m glad i have nice frds who are there for me,and kind ppl like u guys who neevr fail to give me encouragment.thanks!

Amy said...

Radical poem! It is so true.. Earth is a testing ground. What is your Earthly job? Sounds to me like your job is to witness to others the word of GOD, like you did in the poem. Every night I pray for those who are lost, sad, confused etc... Sounds like praying through Jesus Christ to GOD is truly working for some. You do see the light!! GOD BLESS YOU!!
Coming from a 30 year old HOSPICE nurse, mother of 2, one with many autistic signs(not autistic according to the doctors) [blah, blah, blah]. Of course she's not fully autistic.. She is being healed by the LORD everyday!! well as teachers, friends, our family etc.. But hey, that's my job, mothering a "special" child and witnessing to GOD as well .[Those of you who are reading this]
Faith, hope and love to all.. Take care of one another.. It's only a test. Amy, KY